Thursday, May 21, 2009

Road Trip!

Tomorrow morning, my mom and I are waking up bright and early to drive down to my house in North Carolina for the long weekend. It is about a ten hour drive, so we should be there by late afternoon. I am super excited. First, because I am looking forward to spending the next few days hanging out with my mom. She is always so busy around the house or with work that we don't often get to do anything purely fun and relaxing. Second, I can't wait to just be in my own house!! I haven't been back there since Rob deployed in December, so it is sort of bittersweet. I hate being there without him because of all our memories and I just expect him to be downstairs watching TV or in the garage looking for something..but I do love being in my house instead of in my parents house. I plan to be pretty busy and hope that staying occupied will keep my mind somewhat off the fact that Rob isn't home with me. I haven't seen my friends in Fayetteville in almost 6 months! It should be a good time. For now, I need some sleep so I can driiiive tomorrow. I will post more with pics when I get HOME!!!

Friday, May 15, 2009


I talked to Rob twice today, which is more than usual, but I can't help feeling lonely tonight. I try to keep busy with friends, family, work..but at the end of the day I am ALONE. I miss my husband terribly. Everything I do, I wish that he was sharing it with me. When we talked today we discussed our plans for when he comes home. A trip to Italy to visit my family, finishing work in the house and yard, and of course plenty of time just relaxing together. We talk incessantly about starting a family. We both wish we had kids already..but these deployments keep getting in the way. I feel like we are constantly fantasizing about our future, but never really getting the chance to live it. By the time this is over, Rob will have been deployed for 27 months out of the 40 we will be married. That is more than half of our 3 year marriage. I am just so sick of sitting around and waiting. I don't want my life to be on hold any more. I don't want my best friend missing out on everything. Sometimes it is just so HARD. And having CF makes it even harder. I try to live every day to the fullest, but how can I do that when half of me is missing?? My life expectancy is already shortened, and deployments just take more of my precious time away. UGHH..sorry for ranting. We've survived one deployment already and I know we will get thru this one, too. Sometimes it just makes it easier getting it all out. Does anyone else feel like their life is on hold or they aren't where they hoped they would be? How do you deal?
The day he deployed .. 12/08

Friday, May 8, 2009

Friday Fun

Today is Military Spouse Appreciation Day so I would like to wish all my fellow Military Wives a great day and say thank you because I know first hand how hard it is some days. Spouses don't get nearly enough credit for the sacrifices we make every day. We are constantly giving of ourselves, taking on roles and tasks that are typically shared by both spouses, raising children, managing homes, cars & bills, and we spend a lot of time being lonely and worrying about our significant other. As hard as it all is, it is VERY rewarding when we do get to be back with our spouses and it makes it all WORTH IT. So to all the spouses out there, especially ones going through a deployment..THANK YOU..and please do something for yourself today. As for me, I treated myself to a Dunkin Donuts Iced Caramel Latte and had a great webcam date with the hubby =)

Also, I found this ad on AOL this morning about Free Chocolate Fridays from the
Mars company. All you have to do is go to and fill out your info and they will mail you a coupon for a free chocolate bar!!! woohoo Who doesn't LOVE chocolate!!!! Plus it is free..and you can get a coupon every Friday until September!

Tonight I went over to my best friend Amy's house and we had dinner and watched Bride Wars. It was a cute movie even though I don't particularly enjoy chick flicks. She is getting married in September and I am the maid of honor, so it was fitting.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

First Attempt

Well, I've never blogged before. I am hoping this will be a good way to keep in touch and let people know what is going on with Rob, me, and of course our dog, Brooklyn.

We seem to be all over the place sometimes, so maybe this will help everyone keep up!! Right now Rob is in Baghdad & Brooklyn and I are living with my parents in New York. All three of us miss our home and friends in the Fayetteville/Fort Bragg area and can't wait to be back in November!!!!!! This is our second deployment - five months down, seven more to go.